today...i did something wrong again....for which even more worse was tt i repeated the same mistake...sigh.....i know its my fault...i knw tt's not right,but i din stop it......
i dun knw why the relationship between me and him changed so fast...i even cant believe all the things happened these few days...lol...how come become like this??why things went this way?...what's wrong with it?....i really dun knw....both of us are wrong...we cant blame each other...each of us play a part in this game...and made things became this way now....
things ald happened...no way for us to turning back....so the only way we have is to continue this game....i really din mean to hurt anyone...that's really not what i want....i dun want anyone get hurt in this game...especially him....and i feel sorry and guilty to her....for the things which i have done wrongly.....
i dun want to think abt it anymore....this is also the same thing i told him....dun think too much...just let the things slide....and we just follow it...no pressure...no restrict...no worries...just like the way we have been together before....happily together...i dun want give him any pressure n make him stress...that's not what i want....i hate tt...i told myself,no matter what the things going to happen in the future...no matter how the ending of this game is like....i will try my best to dun let anyone get hurt...at least to reduce it as much as i can...dun want anyone get hurt because of me...because of this game....im the one who did the wrong thing,who started the game....so i supposed to be the one who suffer from it.....and not anyone others.....
i want him to continue to being the good guy...good bf...continue his life in the same way....i dun want to make him lose anything he have...lost anyone he love....i won let this kind of thing happen...i won....just because i treasure him the most.....
i read sao sao's blog....saw the thing happened between she and Shawn....so sweet....i like Shawn...i mean in the way of like a friend....he is really a good guy....really....sao sao is really so lucky to met a guy like Shawn...who treat her so good through out these few years and nv change.....i also felt touched by what have Shawn done for sao sao....
sao...why dun ask Shawn to go for the ferry wheel with u? i think he suppose to be the one who on the ferry wheel with u...isn't it??...think abt it bah....i vote for him!!!hahahaha......will u consider abt him?....he is the one who really worth for you to choose.....the best choice u have now....haha....if u dun want then i go for him le hor....dun regret hor...haha......
tmr will be The largest maritime exercise Northstar VI....which i also participate in....i think will be quite exciting bah??....okok....tmr need to report to sch at 6.45am....damn early lor..even no bus to take in the morning....
i need to go rest le....will forget the things which happened today....ya...i will de.... will de.....
dear sis.....all rest earlier ya....see u guys tmr.....nitezz....
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