this chapter

its a long time that i din come here....hehe

im home nw...in China...the weather is cold today...the wind so strong...i prefer stay at home to go out in this kind of weather...

actually im at his house...the"he" refers to someone...someone that nobody of your guys knws....well....i think i will explain it to you aft i go back....anw the things are complicated...i only told Jas something abt it....its hard to say....



dun worry...im alright now...and even feel happy this few days....really...when i with him...his family members also tread me very good...make me feel comfortable to stay with them....
but the happiness is in the way of count down....15 days left for us only.....after 15days...he will go back to Japan to continue his learning journey....and then after a while i also need to return to Sg....the distance between us going to become longer and longer...im afraid of that....the distance...the time...the heart....the feeling....everything going to change...nobody will stay still....and nobody knws the ending until the last second.....

i dun knw after this time...when can i see him again....maybe soon...maybe after few month...few years....or never.....i believe that i can wait....i can be strong enough to stay alone...but im not sure whether he can do the same thing as me.......last time...he give up so easily....how this time will be?...will it be a diff ending?or the same.....

once...i planned to leave Sg...i want to continue my Uni in other country....just because he left....i lost my future plan....so i deceide to just go on....as far as i can.....but now he is back....what shld i do?.....i knw i maybe silly...if i give up evrything just because of him....but to me...he is really important than anything...i dun want to lost him....anyway i knw ppl will change....i knw i may get hurt coz of my way of thinking.....

just let me fall....

i will treasure the time we have now....i hope i could stop the time....i hope the world can stop at this moment....

hope Jas is happy with her bunny now....hope everyone Val is happy with Justin now?(or with somebody else?hahaha...)

fine...that's the end of this chapter....it maybe quite complicated....but that's all i want to say....ya...that's all.....

haha...looking forward to next chapter bah......